לעלות או לא לעלות: זה השאלה

Several weeks ago I attended an optional "Aliyah Seminar" open to all Year Course participants. The schedule handed out read as follows:
10 am- Arrival and Introduction
10:30 am- Aliyah: the nuts and bolts
11 am- IDF info session
12 am- lunch break
1 pm- Nefesh B'Nefesh presentation
2 pm- studies info session
3 pm- Q&A panel with olim

To be honest, I don't know what I really want to say on this issue. I'm not going to get into the nitty gritty of all the info they shoved at us about government benefits, living options, studying options, etc. I don't want to lecture on the ideological obligation I feel I have to make Aliyah nor do I want to extoll the uniqueness of the situation where a government is quite literally throwing money and benefits at new immigrants. I don't want to speculate as to where I will be in my life in 5 years or 10 years. I don't want to worry my mother too much by making some bold statement announcing my intentions of absolutely making Aliyah. I don't want to leave behind my life back in America (there's no way I could go without Buddah Boddai and Dunkin Donuts- 9 months is pushing it) nor do I want to turn my back on Israel which is such a huge part of my identity.

Here's the bottom line:
I am an 18 year old Zionist American Jew with my whole life ahead of me. I have no idea where I will be or what I want to do. But regardless of the where and when the one thing that is for sure is that Israel will always play a huge part in my life.

(In case you don't understand Hebrew, the title of this post is my attempt at word play on the Shakespearean quote "To be or not to be: that is the question". In Hebrew this phrase would translate as "להיות או לא להיות: זה השאלה". The word Aliyah comes from the verb La'alot, to go up.)